Monday, April 28
Feeling Sad Today
We were 3 floors apart and in different departments but still here together.
We didn't each lunch together often or even always get to talk every single day (although mostly) but we were here together.
Today she is beginning a new job within our company. I am very proud of her.
But she is now gone from our building. She is working from one of our satellite offices.
And I miss her already.
And I am happy for her but sad for me.
Monday, April 21
Happy Birthday to Me
My sister-in-law had some contacts at a camera store and they really took care of me price wise.
Now I have to learn how to use it.
Thursday, April 17
Gum
I made it almost 6 1/2 years with her not having any. We were driving and she wanted a cinnamon mint but we didn't have any. So I see her thinking for a minute and then she says, "can I try a piece of gum?"
OK
I give it to her and keep telling her to not swallow it. I ask her what she thinks and she gives me her thumbs up sign.
I also told her that the flavor only lasts a few minutes. And what does she say to that?
"Then what do you do with it?"
I laugh and say that you just chew it. She spits it out and then wants another one. But she was also making a nasty face when she spits it out.
I explained that you don't chew it for a minute, spit it out and then right away chew another one. She wanted to see if she would like the second piece better than the first. I tell her that is not going to happen.
She decides she would have liked it better if it was strawberry flavor. Here we go.......
Tuesday, April 15
Sorry
My birthday is Monday so we are celebrating this Friday evening so I can hopefully go buy a new camera on Saturday.
And the thing about the camers is now I eliminated the Nikon from the list but have added the Canon XSI but they are no where to be found since it is just being released this month. UGH>
Poor Belle has had a wart on her big toe for forever. We have tried so many things to get rid of it and we thought we did a couple of times but it would still be there. I even had the doctor try to freeze it off with no luck. So lately we have really been working on getting rid of it and I think we are just about there. She really wants it to be gone by the time she has to wear sandals and flip flops and especially before we go to Florida. I am hoping once we get this last piece out we will be done. And I think we may be able to get it out this week. I asked her what she wants to do when it is gone and she told me she wants to have a wart be gone party. So in the spirit of things (because she really has gone through a lot with this stupid thing) I am going to try to make a cake in the shape of a foot for her to have a little party. So funny. I will have to post pictures of the cake. I hope I can pull it off.
That is all I can think of off the top of my head.
Wednesday, March 26
More Milestones
Just a bit off of the norm with when she decides to pull out the stops.
For example, from the time she could use her tiny little hands she would help me clean up her toys. Now her idea of cleaning up her toys is to pile stuff on my dining room table or open her door and toss them in her room. This is not ok.
She also never put things in her mouth as an infant but now at 6 I am constantly telling her to take stuff out of her mouth. Now more than ever I am afraid she is going to swallow something and choke. This is not ok.
I have always felt safe in leaving her alone in a room for a few minutes to say go to the bathroom, change a load of clothes, or simply make dinner. Now I have to watch her a bit closer sometimes depending on her mood. This is not ok.
She is lying... This is not ok.
On the 13th she had a couple of clips in her hair. I had put most of her hair up in a bun so she could dress like a ballerina for her career day at school. There were a couple pieces on each side that I needed to put in clips to hold back from her face. That evening at home she wanted to let her hair down. She couldn't get the clips out of her hair and I was in the kitchen making dinner. We go to sit down to eat and my husband asks what the glob of hair on the floor is. She lies and says she doesn't know. That is just came out with her ponytail and clips. She clearly is not telling us that she in fact cut it but we can tell. She loses her scissors indefinitely for lying and I am left shocked that she cut her hair. We have talked about it before and I really never thought she would do it. She finally confessed she cut the clip out since it was stuck. Thankfully it is from underneath and to look at her you can't tell.
And the best milestone that actually brought tears to my eyes is she lost her first tooth on the 24th. It was a good experience so the next ones will hopefully not be dramatic. It freaked me out to look at it all dangly and what not but it came out on its own so that is good. The tooth fairy brought her gold which she is way excited about.
Wednesday, March 19
Son of a Beach
Again.
I have had enough already.
This makes the 4th time since Christmas.
ENOUGH!!!!
Monday, March 17
Digital Camera Research
There are a couple that come close but again it is hard to determine which one to go with without being able to try them out for awhile.
The first is a Nikon D-80. These are so cool and has the Nikon brand name behind it. The major downfall of this camera is that is does not have a live view option on the LCD screen which my hubby would not like at all. He prefers the live view feature to the view finder any day. It does take the SD memory cards that I already have with my point and shoot camera though.
The next one is a Sony A350. This camera seems to have all of the functions that I want but does not take the SD memory cards that I already have so that increases the cost.
The most frustrating thing about these sorts of purchases are you never know how it will handle when you are out in your daily life using it without being able to do that. And so many stores will not return items like this after they are open so I always feel stuck. I think it would be great if a store would say, "Here go try it out for a few weeks." That would be worth their weight in gold. I think I would be more inclined to buy from them since they feel so confident in the product that they are willing to let me test drive it. But sadly that is not an option I have ever seen.
Once I decide which one I can start to save my money. Good thing my birthday is coming up...
Wednesday, March 12
Trip
It will be so nice to have a change in scenery. I think we are all counting the days...
After we take this mini trip we are going on a larger by airplane trip to see our favorite princesses live in person. Now that I truly cannot wait for.... Hmmmmm.......
Monday, March 10
We've Got Snow
I have pictures but I haven't downloaded them yet. The only one I have right now is from my cell phone of the snow in my neighbors yard by the garage.

Suffice it to say that the pile of snow by my garage is so tall that I can climb on the roof. The snow is so deep it comes over Belle's waist.
We definitely don't need more snow. What we need is a slow thaw so we don't flood.
Thursday, March 6
I Hate This
Of course this morning Belle was crying again about going to school. She was fine on Tuesday I think partially because she only had a half day.
I left her crying and walked out. I felt like crying myself.
I hate this......
Tuesday, March 4
School Blues
When we got to the morning latchkey the women who work there saw right away the difference in Belle's demeanor. They talked to her a bit and Belle told them about Rachel yelling at her and another girl last week. Rachel is in Belle's classroom also and even though I hate to say this she is truly a bad, mean, terrible girl. I really hope Rachel learns that behaving the way she does to other people (adults and kids alike) will not get her far and she changes her attitude quickly.
I left Belle there and she was still crying. The women working were very nice and had her be their helper for the morning to keep her busy. She really enjoyed that.
A while later I got a phone call from the one lady who works there telling that Rachel's mom walked in with her and they spoke at length with the mom about how Rachel was treating others and especially Belle. From what I can gather there is a bit of a power struggle for Belle to be friends with certain girls. But the 2 other girls involved don't necessarily want to be friends with each other. Belle just wants to please them both and then gets caught in the middle.
The mom had Rachel apologize and all seems to be well with the world again. For now.
While I don't think this was the only issue since Belle was upset prior to the "incident" I think this is what pushed her over the edge and it became about this.
Today Belle went to school happily, without crying. I am so grateful.
Friday, February 29
Fake Sick
I have mixed feelings about it though.
Typically she was going to latchkey (after school care at the school) every day up until this week. This week we began to have her take the bus home every day. I really think this has her really upset but it is so hard to pinpoint it.
Last week she was sick but I gave her medicine and sent her to school anyway because she really really really wanted to go. This week she is the total opposite. We did have a snow day on Wednesday and I had to stay home from work since I had no one to watch her but she was acting this way before that.
Since she exaggerated and lied about being sick yesterday I told her that she was not allowed to have any sweets since they would further upset her stomach if it was indeed hurting her. Plus due to lying she was not allowed to watch the disn*y channel last night and we still did some writing and math problems. Plus we practiced her no excuse words she should know.
She also had her dance class yesterday and I still took her because for me to not have her go (if you don't go to school you don't do anything mentality) she would have been ok with that. So I had to take the approach of if you fake being sick it doesn't mean you get out of having to leave the house. She is such a home body that sometimes getting her to the activities she loves is hard. Once she is there she is completely into it and that is why we still take her even when she doesn't want to go. When I ask her if she wants to quit going altogether the answer is always no.
Anyway, she didn't want to go to school again this morning but she is there. Hopefully this isn't an ongoing thing. Plus she has been very clingy and not wanting to leave me. I do think part of this is from when they sent her on the bus when she shouldn't have been and there was no one home but I still am trying to help her get past that.
Wish me luck next week. All I can say for now is TGIF.
***********Update**********
The school called me around 11am. Belle has been crying on and off all morning. Her teacher ended up taking her to the nurse's office. I talked to Belle and told her to try to get through the rest of the day. Even her teacher told the nurse that this is not normal. I hate not knowing what happened between last week and this week. I am so worried about my girl. I can't wait to get out of work to talk to her.
Tuesday, February 26
Just a Quick Post
Conversation with Belle after shopping at the Children's Place Outlet on Saturday.
Let me first set the scene. I am carrying a large bag stuffed with clothes to the car. The bulk of which are for her even though I did buy an outfit for my niece to put away for her birthday in July. I am trying to get Belle in the car and then put the bag in the trunk.
Belle, "Daddy is going to say oh shit."
Me, "What did you just say?"
Belle, "Daddy is going to say oh shit."
Me, "What???"\
Belle, " Daddy is going to say oh shit you spent too much money."
Me, thinking, "He better not because I work and make money also and grrrrrr that she would even think such a thing let alone say it out loud."
What I actually said was, "I didn't spend that much so he can't say anything at all."
Wednesday, February 20
Sick Times Three
I am actually on the upswing of this episode. I was pretty bad the end of last week and the weekend.
And it really sucked to be sick this weekend.
I had a nice long weekend and was going to get stuff done. I was going to do fun things with Belle. This is my one funky holiday we get from work and I always look forward to Presidents day because of this.
But this year I only left the house for a family birthday on Saturday and that only took 2 hours tops. The rest of the day Saturday, all day Sunday, and all day Monday I was at home. In my sweats. Looking a bit scruffy but trying to get better.
Sadly, I think Belle is now getting sick. I hope she makes it through school.
Thursday, February 14
Happy Valentines Day

And these are the valentine treat bags we filled with large and small conversation hearts for her to pass out to all her friends in her class.

Monday, February 4
Homemade

I found an old bib of Belle's and used that as a template since I didn't have any patterns. I think the little girl one has a bit of a better shape to it. I also appliqued the star and monkey head on the fronts to add dimension.
I also made matching burp clothes and blankets. They are all made of flannel and chenille.
Here is the whole set together.
And here they all are nice and wrapped up. I just need to put them in a gift bag and finish my handmade card.
I really hope they like it. I know there were a couple of things I could have done better but hopefully they won't notice.
****Update: I gave her the gifts yesterday and she really seemed to like them. I also gave her a handmade card to go with it. Yay!!
Tuesday, January 29
The Maids Will Help Me
I kidding around with Belle about why she didn't just go get in the car while I finished getting our stuff together. Keep in mind that the car is outside in our detached garage. She looked at me kind of funny because she knows that she is not allowed outside by herself. Ever. I realize that is sad but in this day and age I refuse to leave the opportunity for her to get snatched by some crazy person a possibility while we are at home. Anyway, I started laughing and said that I knew why she didn't - because she isn't allowed outside alone.
She sort of looked at me with this half tilted head and the expression of whatever, Mom. I hadn't realized I had been so uncool. :-)
I then reiterated this fact that not only is she not allowed outside by herself at home but at school, etc. She proceeds to tell me that she is allowed outside by herself at school. This stops me in my tracks and I ask her what she means.
She said that as soon as they are done with their lunch they can just go outside. By themselves.
I asked about any grown ups being out there and she told me that the maids are out there already. She said it was the same maids that help them with their coats, boots, or fruit cups.
I of course start laughing and remind her that they are not maids but aides.
She is so funny.
Thursday, January 24
A Little Better
It was awful.
I don't remember being that sick in such a long time.
I don't know if my husband has ever seen me throw up in person in the 9 years we have lived in our house. I can't even remember the last time I did throw up. That happened Monday. Poor Belle was home alone with me while he went to the store for me. He comes back to Belle announcing what I was doing. Thankfully that was the only time but that was enough. It was full body and nothing really coming out. I even broke a blood vessel in my eye. UGH.
Then the pain of the sore throat just wouldn't go away. I finally went to the doctor yesterday and upon inspection of my throat I heard, "Oh wow. That looks really bad."
Yes, thank you I am sure it does because it is so very painful to swallow.
Anyway, I am back to work. I think my high fever is gone. I still keep playing around with 99-100 every now and again yesterday. The Motrin is finally strong enough to keep the throat pain away and the antibiotics must be helping finally.
And all I still want to do is sleep. Crazy.
I just hope that no one else in my house gets sick. Especially Belle.
Monday, January 21
Sick again....
I am stuck at work and I feel like crap. I know I have a fever as well as a sore throat and a cough.
I can't wait to go home and curl up on my couch with my blankie.
Thursday, January 17
Things To Do
Then I was reading other blogs and found I am not the only one itching for a change. Except Greta did it. It looks really cool too.
And then I look at mine again and realize I still have my Christmas red and green fonts. Blech. It is January. Way past time to change that. So I at least changed my colors but will really need to think of a new banner photo.
Plus I really really really want to come up with some sort of cute, crafty, design-ish name so that I can get labels and set up my etsy shop and so on with my craft creations that I would like to sell. I really need help with this one. I love Beki's but it is hers and I find it funny she doesn't really like it. But I think it is great.
Any ideas?????