I am not sure how I can go from a post about inspiration to a post about venting but it seems that is what I may do.
I have been told in not such a nice way that I am different. I don't think I am. The only thing I am sure about is that I have less patience for people being mean or unsupportive to me. And I am spending a little time (maybe on a busy week 2 days totalling 4 hours or so away from home) volunteering. The rectory has really become my happy place. It is quiet and people are nice to me there.
The only things I am not doing at home as often are cooking dinner and sitting and watching tv with the other people in my house. Keep in mind I don't usually cook much during the summer anyway and only a few times a week the rest of the year due to other activities.
I did have a major event in my life take place this year and that has profoundly affected me. Not that anyone besides my sister understands this. But people don't like to hear that you are unhappy or miss someone who passed away. They just want you to act happy. And for the most part I am happyish but it still affects me. I feel at peace when I am at church. I feel closer to my grandfather when I am volunteering at the rectory. It is something he did and something I don't plan on giving up. It is something that I can carry on for him and hopefully teach my daughter it is good to give back. And as it turns out I am getting way more out of it than I am giving which is a great bonus.
This Friday we are having a memorial service for my grandmother-in-law who passed away several years ago but my mother-in-law just recently got her ashes back from California so she can bury them and fulfill her mom's final wishes. I am hoping and praying I handle it well.
I guess this was a vent post after all. Although, there is so much more I would like to complain about I think I will keep myself in check.
On a fun note, we have had so much excitement at work. Movie stars and explosions. I can't wait to see the movie next year!