I have decided I am going to read the bible cover to cover. It may take me forever to do it but I am.
I haven't read it like that since I was still in school. Which seems like forever ago. Funny thing is I have recently seen a guy at church who I used to hang out with (in a group of us) back in high school. I haven't been able to catch up to him to see if he remembers me. Plus I am always a bit shy in those situations.
Back to the bible. I have only gotten a little ways through Genesis and I can't believe I didn't remember that the early people discussed lived for hundreds of years each. Crazy.
This is probably so not politically correct but if I am going to be honest about what crosses my mind I have to say this. When someone is said to live for hundreds of years it makes you think immortality which then sends my mind to vampires. Now make no mistake I am not saying in any way shape or form that people in the bible were vampires. Because I am not saying that at all. It is just that since I was a kid I have always liked a good vampire story and immortality links to vampire in my mind.
Again totally out of context of what the real understanding (which I did absorb) is from Genesis.
It is just funny how a persons mind works. Just don't think less of me. lol
Friday, April 8
Thursday, April 7
Explain
I want to explain a little bit about why now. And to answer that question is very difficult. I think there are many reasons I can think of and I am sure there are others that I don't even realize.
First, I just think this was God's time for me. I have always wanted to have my confirmation but never did it. Sometimes I didn't do it simply because I didn't want to take the time to go through classes and such. Which is even the reason I inquired when I did. I figured I had already spent all that time at the family classes for my daughters communion/confirmation that those should count for something. They didn't but as it turns out I am glad they didn't.
Since around last September we have pretty much had a weekly meeting after mass. Some longer than others but all pretty informal. I have made some great friends from those meetings.
But back to the question at hand. Why now...
Even up to the day of my confirmation I was not prepared for how I would feel.
After much reflection on that event I think all of my thoughts about our church and where it is today, our new pastor and how I love how he leads us, and the fact that I have always wanted to feel like I truly belonged to be there all came together in that moment. Sister said it is the power of the Holy Spirit.
Since I was young I always wanted a church where the pastor didn't just preach to you but could speak to you according to the times. He does that. He can quote a movie during a homily that I know and I think he found the spiritual meaning in a movie that I remember most for some of the stand out lines. He is so in tune with the parish and how many are still struggling with the merger and the fact that he is there that he addresses this in a manner of grace. I find him very inspiring and feeling like I should do more and be more. Not because I feel pressure but because I feel inspired. Haven't you ever met or seen someone who inspires you simply by being themselves? It is a rare quality that some people have to truly inspire others. And I feel he has it and is able to inspire the congregation through God. Believe me there are plenty of people who don't like him at all and tell him that all the time. But most of those people are still mad that our prior pastor is no longer there. And I understand that but I also think if our parish is ever going to be able to move forward those people need to let go of the hate and move back to why we are at church in the first place.
Sister that is there is simply amazing. She is also a wonderful person who can relate to all of us. You never feel like you are not up to par. I speak/email with her sometimes several times a week. She will sometimes say things and you think she is a nun she can't say that but that is very old school of me. She is never disrespectful especially concerning faith. But because of this merger she is leaving soon. I cannot imagine our church without her but I am trying to focus only on the positive right now. We will see once she is gone. Change isn't always easy.
Why now? I guess I don't fully know myself. It just is. For so many reasons. More than I have even stated. Maybe it is now thanks to the grace of God...
First, I just think this was God's time for me. I have always wanted to have my confirmation but never did it. Sometimes I didn't do it simply because I didn't want to take the time to go through classes and such. Which is even the reason I inquired when I did. I figured I had already spent all that time at the family classes for my daughters communion/confirmation that those should count for something. They didn't but as it turns out I am glad they didn't.
Since around last September we have pretty much had a weekly meeting after mass. Some longer than others but all pretty informal. I have made some great friends from those meetings.
But back to the question at hand. Why now...
Even up to the day of my confirmation I was not prepared for how I would feel.
After much reflection on that event I think all of my thoughts about our church and where it is today, our new pastor and how I love how he leads us, and the fact that I have always wanted to feel like I truly belonged to be there all came together in that moment. Sister said it is the power of the Holy Spirit.
Since I was young I always wanted a church where the pastor didn't just preach to you but could speak to you according to the times. He does that. He can quote a movie during a homily that I know and I think he found the spiritual meaning in a movie that I remember most for some of the stand out lines. He is so in tune with the parish and how many are still struggling with the merger and the fact that he is there that he addresses this in a manner of grace. I find him very inspiring and feeling like I should do more and be more. Not because I feel pressure but because I feel inspired. Haven't you ever met or seen someone who inspires you simply by being themselves? It is a rare quality that some people have to truly inspire others. And I feel he has it and is able to inspire the congregation through God. Believe me there are plenty of people who don't like him at all and tell him that all the time. But most of those people are still mad that our prior pastor is no longer there. And I understand that but I also think if our parish is ever going to be able to move forward those people need to let go of the hate and move back to why we are at church in the first place.
Sister that is there is simply amazing. She is also a wonderful person who can relate to all of us. You never feel like you are not up to par. I speak/email with her sometimes several times a week. She will sometimes say things and you think she is a nun she can't say that but that is very old school of me. She is never disrespectful especially concerning faith. But because of this merger she is leaving soon. I cannot imagine our church without her but I am trying to focus only on the positive right now. We will see once she is gone. Change isn't always easy.
Why now? I guess I don't fully know myself. It just is. For so many reasons. More than I have even stated. Maybe it is now thanks to the grace of God...
Monday, April 4
Being Catholic
Once again I can't believe how long it has been since the last time I posted anything here. Almost a year is simply crazy. I hope I will post more often since I have a focus for my posts more than ever. I may still post about cakes or other such life stuff but I think my main posts will be about what I am learning about being Catholic and why now.
It won't be preachy but more my very personal thoughts that I can't say to those I know in real life because they don't understand. I don't know if anyone will ever really understand but I just needed an outlet for these thoughts even if no one reads them.
As a lot of places across the country have seen this past year there has been a lot of change in our church. Some parishes have closed while others have merged. And to top it all off the pastors have all been moved around.
I have been going to my church off and on since we discovered it 10 years ago. We were welcomed with open arms at this parish and went consistently until my daughter was too loud and fidgety. Once we were out of the habit it was difficult to start back up 3 years ago. But we did and I am so grateful for that. Last year she made her first communion and confirmation all at the same time. In many ways I was soooo happy to have them both done at once. It was great from a busy parent perspective but really she didn't learn as much as I had hoped she would. While going through this with her I thought I should see about making my confirmation. I had been baptized Catholic, first communion Catholic & Lutheran, confirmation Lutheran but never confirmed Catholic which is as an adult I chose to be.
For the past year I had been working towards that and was able to convince my husband to make his communion and confirmation. At the time I just didn't want to go by myself.
This process has brought out more in me than what I ever knew to be there. While all this was going on our church became the location of 2 merged parishes (ours and another), our pastor was moved out and a new pastor was brought in. At first I was really upset that the previous pastor would not be the one to do my daughters 1st communion and confirmation since they changed 2 months prior to her sacraments. But I decided to give the new guy a chance on his own merits.
Also during this past year my sister finally was able to get pregnant and had twin girls. And she asked me to be the godmother for the oldest. I now had to speed up my process so that I could be a fully initiated Catholic by March 13th.
I spoke to Sister about this and our new Father and we were able to perform my confirmation on March 5th. I knew I already loved our new pastor better than our old and far better than I could have imagined but what transpired during my confirmation was something I was not at all ready for. Something truly transformed in me during that mass. While I was standing up there in front of the whole church all I could do was look at him. I was too nervous with everyone looking at me. And then at the end he gave me a hug that I say sealed the Holy Spirit and love for our church in me. I really was changed and I wasn't ready for it to be such a powerful thing. I thought OK, finally, I will have everything done. At 41. But it was so much more than that.
Over this past year I have really listened to his homilies like I have never before. I have been searching for a church and pastor that I could completely relate and connect with. I know I have found it finally.
I am now obsessed with wanting to do more at the church, be more personally. These are things I think about all the time now. And things that I have tried to say on a small scale to people close to me but they don't really understand. Even my husband is not understanding so here is where my rambling mind will express all that is in me.
I think I will be posting quite often now....
It won't be preachy but more my very personal thoughts that I can't say to those I know in real life because they don't understand. I don't know if anyone will ever really understand but I just needed an outlet for these thoughts even if no one reads them.
As a lot of places across the country have seen this past year there has been a lot of change in our church. Some parishes have closed while others have merged. And to top it all off the pastors have all been moved around.
I have been going to my church off and on since we discovered it 10 years ago. We were welcomed with open arms at this parish and went consistently until my daughter was too loud and fidgety. Once we were out of the habit it was difficult to start back up 3 years ago. But we did and I am so grateful for that. Last year she made her first communion and confirmation all at the same time. In many ways I was soooo happy to have them both done at once. It was great from a busy parent perspective but really she didn't learn as much as I had hoped she would. While going through this with her I thought I should see about making my confirmation. I had been baptized Catholic, first communion Catholic & Lutheran, confirmation Lutheran but never confirmed Catholic which is as an adult I chose to be.
For the past year I had been working towards that and was able to convince my husband to make his communion and confirmation. At the time I just didn't want to go by myself.
This process has brought out more in me than what I ever knew to be there. While all this was going on our church became the location of 2 merged parishes (ours and another), our pastor was moved out and a new pastor was brought in. At first I was really upset that the previous pastor would not be the one to do my daughters 1st communion and confirmation since they changed 2 months prior to her sacraments. But I decided to give the new guy a chance on his own merits.
Also during this past year my sister finally was able to get pregnant and had twin girls. And she asked me to be the godmother for the oldest. I now had to speed up my process so that I could be a fully initiated Catholic by March 13th.
I spoke to Sister about this and our new Father and we were able to perform my confirmation on March 5th. I knew I already loved our new pastor better than our old and far better than I could have imagined but what transpired during my confirmation was something I was not at all ready for. Something truly transformed in me during that mass. While I was standing up there in front of the whole church all I could do was look at him. I was too nervous with everyone looking at me. And then at the end he gave me a hug that I say sealed the Holy Spirit and love for our church in me. I really was changed and I wasn't ready for it to be such a powerful thing. I thought OK, finally, I will have everything done. At 41. But it was so much more than that.
Over this past year I have really listened to his homilies like I have never before. I have been searching for a church and pastor that I could completely relate and connect with. I know I have found it finally.
I am now obsessed with wanting to do more at the church, be more personally. These are things I think about all the time now. And things that I have tried to say on a small scale to people close to me but they don't really understand. Even my husband is not understanding so here is where my rambling mind will express all that is in me.
I think I will be posting quite often now....
Thursday, August 19
Ordering a Cake
It is difficult for people who don't decorate cakes to understand the ordering and pricing of a specialty cake.
Melanie of Cake Walk could not have explained it better. See below excerpt. To see the full post with her pictures go here.
A clean, pure design but it still looks regal enough for a 4-year-old's birthday party.It's a perfect example that you can get a cake for any budget. Of course, the more you're willing to spend, the more out-of-the-box and show-stopping your cake will be! But this is a great cake, don't you agree?
How to keep costs down if you've already blown your party budget:
-Avoid sugar work. Use plastic figures or silk flowers wherever possible, but don't compromise on the appearance! For example, this is a cute crown. Don't get a cheap-y looking one that will ruin your cake.
-Stick with minimal decorating. While it's definitely more boring for us decorators, keep the decorating simple. The less time a decorator spends on a cake, the less money you'll probably spend on it.
-Avoid fondant. Many decorators, though not all, charge slightly more for a fondant-covered cake. Why do they charge extra? It's logical really. Covering a cake in fondant requires both more time and more material - they've got to cover those costs.
-Tell your decorator your budget. Yes, really! Many decorators are willing to try to work within your budget. They can give you options on your cake to show you what you can get for your money. Just ask! But don't insult your decorator by trying to get a cake dirt cheap - respect her time and effort. If you realize that you just can't afford the cakes, be "man" enough to tell the decorator and order a cake in the future when you can.
*Now, having said all that, I also have to add that cake decorating is an art form. If you can afford it, set aside a little extra money for the cake. Many decorators will really amaze you with what they can do in sugar!
*I'm giving you this advice because it's truly what I believe. I do not take cake orders so none of this is inspired from a particular experience. It's just a little bit of insider information on how to get an adorable custom cake if you can't afford to get the kind of cakes you see on TV.
Melanie of Cake Walk could not have explained it better. See below excerpt. To see the full post with her pictures go here.
A clean, pure design but it still looks regal enough for a 4-year-old's birthday party.It's a perfect example that you can get a cake for any budget. Of course, the more you're willing to spend, the more out-of-the-box and show-stopping your cake will be! But this is a great cake, don't you agree?
How to keep costs down if you've already blown your party budget:
-Avoid sugar work. Use plastic figures or silk flowers wherever possible, but don't compromise on the appearance! For example, this is a cute crown. Don't get a cheap-y looking one that will ruin your cake.
-Stick with minimal decorating. While it's definitely more boring for us decorators, keep the decorating simple. The less time a decorator spends on a cake, the less money you'll probably spend on it.
-Avoid fondant. Many decorators, though not all, charge slightly more for a fondant-covered cake. Why do they charge extra? It's logical really. Covering a cake in fondant requires both more time and more material - they've got to cover those costs.
-Tell your decorator your budget. Yes, really! Many decorators are willing to try to work within your budget. They can give you options on your cake to show you what you can get for your money. Just ask! But don't insult your decorator by trying to get a cake dirt cheap - respect her time and effort. If you realize that you just can't afford the cakes, be "man" enough to tell the decorator and order a cake in the future when you can.
*Now, having said all that, I also have to add that cake decorating is an art form. If you can afford it, set aside a little extra money for the cake. Many decorators will really amaze you with what they can do in sugar!
*I'm giving you this advice because it's truly what I believe. I do not take cake orders so none of this is inspired from a particular experience. It's just a little bit of insider information on how to get an adorable custom cake if you can't afford to get the kind of cakes you see on TV.
Tuesday, June 22
Vacation
So we finally decided on a vacation destination.
Unfortunately we decided we were not going to go to the happiest place on earth.
We decided to go to the sweetest place on earth.
We are only going to go for a few days but it will be good to get away and have a change of scenery for a bit.
I can't wait.
Now I just need to do some research and find out where to stay and what to do while there.
I have some time, though, since we are not going tomorrow or even the next day or even the day after that. lol
Unfortunately we decided we were not going to go to the happiest place on earth.
We decided to go to the sweetest place on earth.
We are only going to go for a few days but it will be good to get away and have a change of scenery for a bit.
I can't wait.
Now I just need to do some research and find out where to stay and what to do while there.
I have some time, though, since we are not going tomorrow or even the next day or even the day after that. lol
Wednesday, June 2
Same Ole Same Ole
Not much has changed around here. Other than it is now June. And once again I am wondering where the previous month has gone. I swear time is speeding up the older I get.
I have made a couple more cakes...
I have done a couple others but I don't have those photos handy. These pictures were bad cell phone pictures but you get the idea. They came out ok. And I am still having so much fun doing them. The people they were for seemed to really like them so that is what really counts.
Tomorrow is Belle's last day of school. I am shocked she will be in 3rd grade next year. She continues to grow up too fast but she really is so smart and beautiful inside and out. I don't know how I got so lucky to have a daughter like her.
I am trying to figure out where we can go on a mini vacation this summer. We want to be able to drive there and spend a couple days (or at least that is what I am hoping for).
This afternoon I get to go help serve Belle's class an ice cream social. This is either going to be really cute or really a hot sticky mess (85 degrees today and t-storms).
I guess that is it for now. On to next month. lol
Monday, May 3
Where Did April Go?
My goodness how did it become May so soon?
I guess that is pretty much it. I am going to make a cake for next Monday for a graduation for a coworker who just got her degree. And hopefully I will get some more cake orders soon.
Where did April go? My birthday is in April and it usually seems to take forever to get here. I am not sure why I am always anxious for it to be my birthday but I usually am. Not this year. Maybe it is because I am now over 40 officially. For my 40th I went to Disney and spent that day near and at the castle so it couldn't get too much better than that. Oh well. I want to get old but just not so quickly. This was my birthday cake I made:
My sister is still pregnant which is great! She has had some minor complications that we hope remain minor and in the end will not affect anything. But this week she is officially 3 months pregnant. With TWINS!! Oh my oh my...
She had been on such a long infertility road I am just so happy for her. And as she puts it she was able to buy 1 and get 1 free. She is too funny.
Anyone with tips and tricks for twins send them my way and I will pass them on. She will definitely be able to use them.
Belle also made her first communion and confirmation yesterday so I had been busy planning her party and making her cake as well as a cake for one of her friends who also made her 1st communion on Saturday.
This is her friend's cake. She asked for white cake and frosting that had flowers and was pretty. I hopefully met her criteria.
I guess that is pretty much it. I am going to make a cake for next Monday for a graduation for a coworker who just got her degree. And hopefully I will get some more cake orders soon.
Wednesday, March 17
Good News
I know I have posted in the past about my sister and her infertility problems.
She has done countless IUI's.
On February 27 she had invitro done.
AND IT WORKED!!!
I am so happy to say my sister is finally pregnant.
She is still on eggshells until she is 3 months and it still feels a bit surreal for her.
But today she is 5 weeks.
I get to plan a baby shower. I can't wait.
She has done countless IUI's.
On February 27 she had invitro done.
AND IT WORKED!!!
I am so happy to say my sister is finally pregnant.
She is still on eggshells until she is 3 months and it still feels a bit surreal for her.
But today she is 5 weeks.
I get to plan a baby shower. I can't wait.
Thursday, January 28
Check This Out
I was reading other blogs as I typically do. I read others far more than I post to my own.
But this I just had to do. I love good bake ware. But this this is far too cute.
I love that it is pink.
I love that it is helping raise funds for breast cancer.
If you would like a chance (or 4) to win this lovely pie plate pop on over to Joyously Living Life for your chance to win this beautiful Emile Henry pink pie plate.
Thursday, November 19
New Moon
My bestest friend (who is not related to me) name dropped her brother-in-law (who is a catholic priest) to our local radio station to get passes to see an advanced screening for New Moon which was last night.
Wow that was a long sentence.
Anyway, I have been purposely not re-reading the books again so that this time I could not be as close to the book when I saw the movie. And I have to tell you I still knew what was or should happen when but it was ok this time. With Twilight the movie I was disappointed. I still love the movie from the sheer fact that I love the book but the movie wasn't nearly as good if you hadn't known the story.
But New Moon was sooooooooooooo much better. So much better.
I can't wait to see it again on Saturday when a bunch of us girls planned to go originally.
The only thing I can't stand is all of the screaming and talking to the screen from the audience. Really, can't we just watch and not feel the need to be loud???
Wow that was a long sentence.
Anyway, I have been purposely not re-reading the books again so that this time I could not be as close to the book when I saw the movie. And I have to tell you I still knew what was or should happen when but it was ok this time. With Twilight the movie I was disappointed. I still love the movie from the sheer fact that I love the book but the movie wasn't nearly as good if you hadn't known the story.
But New Moon was sooooooooooooo much better. So much better.
I can't wait to see it again on Saturday when a bunch of us girls planned to go originally.
The only thing I can't stand is all of the screaming and talking to the screen from the audience. Really, can't we just watch and not feel the need to be loud???
Thursday, October 15
Help Wanted
It has been another long stretch before posting.
All is well with us and extremely busy.
I am preparing for a craft fair at my local community center on Saturday. It has been a long time since I have done one of these and I am a bit nervous no one will want anything I have. I figured what doesn't sell I will put up on my etsy site that is simply collecting cobwebs.
I would also like anyone who may read this to go to Maggie's site to vote for her for a blogging gig. She is an amazing writer who deserves this job. Please vote for her!!
Later...
All is well with us and extremely busy.
I am preparing for a craft fair at my local community center on Saturday. It has been a long time since I have done one of these and I am a bit nervous no one will want anything I have. I figured what doesn't sell I will put up on my etsy site that is simply collecting cobwebs.
I would also like anyone who may read this to go to Maggie's site to vote for her for a blogging gig. She is an amazing writer who deserves this job. Please vote for her!!
Later...
Tuesday, September 22
Tuesday, September 15
Life Stuff Time
I am still here. Sort of.
I am always thinking of something I should post about but rarely have the time to fully type out a post. Then I start to feel guilty because time goes by and by. It is hard to believe I have not posted anything on here for 3 months. 3 months is crazy long.
I may post more often but also may not. We will see how it goes.
I am reading other people's posts when I can so I am around. I hope everyone is doing just fine. We are which I am really grateful for.
I have made a few more cakes and am getting ready for 2 more this weekend plus I need to start getting my crafty goodness together for a craft fair in October. Busy. Busy. Busy.
I am always thinking of something I should post about but rarely have the time to fully type out a post. Then I start to feel guilty because time goes by and by. It is hard to believe I have not posted anything on here for 3 months. 3 months is crazy long.
I may post more often but also may not. We will see how it goes.
I am reading other people's posts when I can so I am around. I hope everyone is doing just fine. We are which I am really grateful for.
I have made a few more cakes and am getting ready for 2 more this weekend plus I need to start getting my crafty goodness together for a craft fair in October. Busy. Busy. Busy.
Tuesday, June 16
Hey, What's Up
I guess I am a bad blogger. Well I guess I shouldn't guess. I am.
I am always thinking of things to blog about.
But actually taking those thoughts and putting them into a cohesive post is a whole other thing.
For example, I really wanted to say how I am happy and sad that on June 2nd Belle starting taking showers on her own. Mostly on her own. I still supervise or step in every now and again but basically on her own. She swore I would have to bathe her until she was 30 and sometimes older. I knew that would never happen so I never made a big deal out of it. Then one day after watching you know who and you know who plus 8 she realized the little kids took their own showers and she wanted to try. So she did and that has been that. The only part that makes me sad is this is just another step in her growing up too fast.
I wanted to tell everyone how I missed my nephews graduation ceremony on June 6th because the night before I dislocated my knee in the parking lot of a dance store. Just Belle and I. While she was getting in the car (which is really high as it is really more like a SUV) I was just standing there and while I don't think I even twisted at all I must have, my knee went pop and it was out of place. I couldn't move. I couldn't bend it. I really couldn't do anything. I almost threw up and Belle freaked out. I got myself together a bit and called my husband to come get me to take me to the ER. Sadly I wasn't too close to home so I spent about an hour in that parking lot getting dirty looks from other people who wanted to park next to me and couldn't understand why I wouldn't move out of their way and close the door. I couldn't move though. About 10 minutes before he got there I decided I really needed to try to get in the car so that I can get to the hospital. I lifted myself up with my arms and other leg and tried to slide across the back seat. There was so much pain I couldn't even begin to tell you. I then tried to get right back out again as I couldn't stand the pain and definitely didn't want to get sick in the car. On my way back out I heard another very loud pop and my knee was relocated. I was then able to bend it a bit and get myself sitting in the car. It was very sore and unstable. I didn't go to the hospital after all. I just had it xrayed and it doesn't seem that I tore anything so that is good. We will see how it goes. I felt really bad for Belle, though. She was so scared and is now telling everyone I was squealing. What I was really doing was yelling from the pain. And I wasn't trying to yell it was just coming out.
What else has gone on...
Oh yeah. I bought a new car. Crossover. SUV. Whatever it is technically. It is big. It is shiny. And I love it. We took the chance and bought GM. I really hope they don't make me sorry for trying to have faith. It is a Chevy Traverse. White. Pretty. And it tows his boat easily which was part of the main point. My van I used to have was trying it's hardest not to strand me anywhere and deserved to rest. It did have 161,000 miles on it after all. It was a good van.
We are in the process of getting ready for Belle's dance recital. She will be in 3 dances each day. One is a ballet piece that she isn't really all that interested in but then she has her competition group jazz dance and another jazz dance. It should be fun.
Today is my 9 year wedding anniversary.
I spent my 40th birthday on April 21st at my favorite place. The castle in the magic kingdom. Sadly I had a crappy waiter who ruined my birthday lunch (which was my only place I really wanted to go on my birthday). I figured if I had to turn 40 than I wanted to do it at the most magical place on earth. Of the 3 times we have gone this time we had some issues and it was a bit dissapointing but still great if that can make sense.
Hmmmm..........
I think that is it. I am sure there are other things I am forgetting right now. It has been 2 months after all. I am sorry for the weak posting and can't promise to be better but I also can't seem to totally give it up. So I am around.
I am always thinking of things to blog about.
But actually taking those thoughts and putting them into a cohesive post is a whole other thing.
For example, I really wanted to say how I am happy and sad that on June 2nd Belle starting taking showers on her own. Mostly on her own. I still supervise or step in every now and again but basically on her own. She swore I would have to bathe her until she was 30 and sometimes older. I knew that would never happen so I never made a big deal out of it. Then one day after watching you know who and you know who plus 8 she realized the little kids took their own showers and she wanted to try. So she did and that has been that. The only part that makes me sad is this is just another step in her growing up too fast.
I wanted to tell everyone how I missed my nephews graduation ceremony on June 6th because the night before I dislocated my knee in the parking lot of a dance store. Just Belle and I. While she was getting in the car (which is really high as it is really more like a SUV) I was just standing there and while I don't think I even twisted at all I must have, my knee went pop and it was out of place. I couldn't move. I couldn't bend it. I really couldn't do anything. I almost threw up and Belle freaked out. I got myself together a bit and called my husband to come get me to take me to the ER. Sadly I wasn't too close to home so I spent about an hour in that parking lot getting dirty looks from other people who wanted to park next to me and couldn't understand why I wouldn't move out of their way and close the door. I couldn't move though. About 10 minutes before he got there I decided I really needed to try to get in the car so that I can get to the hospital. I lifted myself up with my arms and other leg and tried to slide across the back seat. There was so much pain I couldn't even begin to tell you. I then tried to get right back out again as I couldn't stand the pain and definitely didn't want to get sick in the car. On my way back out I heard another very loud pop and my knee was relocated. I was then able to bend it a bit and get myself sitting in the car. It was very sore and unstable. I didn't go to the hospital after all. I just had it xrayed and it doesn't seem that I tore anything so that is good. We will see how it goes. I felt really bad for Belle, though. She was so scared and is now telling everyone I was squealing. What I was really doing was yelling from the pain. And I wasn't trying to yell it was just coming out.
What else has gone on...
Oh yeah. I bought a new car. Crossover. SUV. Whatever it is technically. It is big. It is shiny. And I love it. We took the chance and bought GM. I really hope they don't make me sorry for trying to have faith. It is a Chevy Traverse. White. Pretty. And it tows his boat easily which was part of the main point. My van I used to have was trying it's hardest not to strand me anywhere and deserved to rest. It did have 161,000 miles on it after all. It was a good van.
We are in the process of getting ready for Belle's dance recital. She will be in 3 dances each day. One is a ballet piece that she isn't really all that interested in but then she has her competition group jazz dance and another jazz dance. It should be fun.
Today is my 9 year wedding anniversary.
I spent my 40th birthday on April 21st at my favorite place. The castle in the magic kingdom. Sadly I had a crappy waiter who ruined my birthday lunch (which was my only place I really wanted to go on my birthday). I figured if I had to turn 40 than I wanted to do it at the most magical place on earth. Of the 3 times we have gone this time we had some issues and it was a bit dissapointing but still great if that can make sense.
Hmmmm..........
I think that is it. I am sure there are other things I am forgetting right now. It has been 2 months after all. I am sorry for the weak posting and can't promise to be better but I also can't seem to totally give it up. So I am around.
Wednesday, April 1
Eat Cake
I am having so much fun making and decorating cakes.
I am on a quest to find the best yellow cake and chocolate cake recipes plus the best frosting(both white/buttercream and chocolate). The frosting I have made so far seems to be too sweet.
My family have been my testers. They have been really sad about it too.
Here is my latest cake. I really can't take credit for the design but here it is.
It is a little wonky in areas and I made mistakes but I still like it.
I brought it in to work today since this was a bit much to leave at home.
Next up is my birthday cake. I don't know how I want to design it yet. (The main reason I am making my own birthday cake is so that I can monitor the ingredients and know the Belle can eat it and be within her sodium limits.)
Tuesday, March 24
And More Tests
We still don't know much more.
We went to see a pediatric nephrologist yesterday.
Who took more blood for more tests.
This is my worst fear coming to life.
I had more things I wanted to say but this is about all I can handle right now.
We went to see a pediatric nephrologist yesterday.
Who took more blood for more tests.
This is my worst fear coming to life.
I had more things I wanted to say but this is about all I can handle right now.
Wednesday, March 18
Tests
I have never been a fan of tests.
I know they are necessary but they create far too much stress.
If you know you have to take a test you are stressed before hand because you want to do well.
Then you stress after the test because you want good results.
And this all counts for medical tests which are just even more stressful.
This year is my first year for needing a mammogram. While I know I will have to do it it still stresses me out. A very good friend of mine who is 2 years older than I am had breast cancer 1 year and a half ago. Stress. Luckily she had her test and followed through with it all and is doing great and considered cancer free because she caught it so early.
But still stress.
Now I am waiting for test results on brown urine. Literally brown. Not even a hint of yellow. This was like nothing I have ever seen. And it was Belle's.
She also had a strep test yesterday which came back positive so she is already on antibiotics but still. I made the mistake of looking up possible causes of brown urine. While there are some fairly non-scary reasons there are also a bunch of really really scary reasons.
I will find out tomorrow the results tomorrow afternoon.
Until then I will be increasingly stressed even if I refuse to let anyone else know just how stressed I am.
I know they are necessary but they create far too much stress.
If you know you have to take a test you are stressed before hand because you want to do well.
Then you stress after the test because you want good results.
And this all counts for medical tests which are just even more stressful.
This year is my first year for needing a mammogram. While I know I will have to do it it still stresses me out. A very good friend of mine who is 2 years older than I am had breast cancer 1 year and a half ago. Stress. Luckily she had her test and followed through with it all and is doing great and considered cancer free because she caught it so early.
But still stress.
Now I am waiting for test results on brown urine. Literally brown. Not even a hint of yellow. This was like nothing I have ever seen. And it was Belle's.
She also had a strep test yesterday which came back positive so she is already on antibiotics but still. I made the mistake of looking up possible causes of brown urine. While there are some fairly non-scary reasons there are also a bunch of really really scary reasons.
I will find out tomorrow the results tomorrow afternoon.
Until then I will be increasingly stressed even if I refuse to let anyone else know just how stressed I am.
Friday, March 6
I have done it. I am now on Face book and I have no idea what to do with it.
Many many others are on it. I have a few friends so far and some relatives.
I have made small insignificant posts.
But I feel I am missing something about it.
I guess I will have to play with it a little more this weekend.
TGIF
Many many others are on it. I have a few friends so far and some relatives.
I have made small insignificant posts.
But I feel I am missing something about it.
I guess I will have to play with it a little more this weekend.
TGIF
Wednesday, March 4
Update
My niece came home from the hospital Sunday night and went back to school yesterday. She is still not 100% but she is a bit better. At least she is not dehydrated anymore.
But then my mother-in-law got sick Sunday night into Monday and is still trying to recover. The doctor said it wasn't the flu but we all think that she had/has the extremely nasty stomach flu that is going around. The confirmation is that my sister-in-law now has it.
Basically I am buying a bubble for myself later today.
But then my mother-in-law got sick Sunday night into Monday and is still trying to recover. The doctor said it wasn't the flu but we all think that she had/has the extremely nasty stomach flu that is going around. The confirmation is that my sister-in-law now has it.
Basically I am buying a bubble for myself later today.
Monday, March 2
This Weekend
I am sooooooooooooooo tired.
I could honestly close my eyes and fall asleep right this very second.
Thursday night around 9pm my 15 year old niece was taken to the hospital. She has some medical issues but on top of that was also dehydrated. They gave her plenty of fluids and medicine through an iv. She was finally able to go home Sunday evening.
Which left her younger brother and sister at home with their dad which is fine but he usually works Saturday mornings and always has something going on. So they stayed with us all weekend.
On Saturday I took them and Belle to Build A Bear and we made my niece a bear with a hospital gown. It was really cute. We then took it to the hospital and visited for about 2 hours.
Backing up to Friday we went to my sister-in-laws house for her step sons birthday party. He made some sandwiches and my mother in law made some macaroni salad. Plus there were some other dishes but my brother in law ended up with over a 100* fever on Saturday.
And now as we speak my mother in law is at the doctors office. She was throwing up all night and morning. Great....
We all ate the foods they prepared so there is a very good chance we will all get sick. I really hope not especially since we all at some point this weekend visited my niece at the hospital. And the medicine she has to take lowers her immune system somewhat so she realllllly can't get sick.
Belle was complaining of a head ache yesterday and then again this morning so I hope that isn't anything also.
Needless to say I am really really tired.
I could honestly close my eyes and fall asleep right this very second.
Thursday night around 9pm my 15 year old niece was taken to the hospital. She has some medical issues but on top of that was also dehydrated. They gave her plenty of fluids and medicine through an iv. She was finally able to go home Sunday evening.
Which left her younger brother and sister at home with their dad which is fine but he usually works Saturday mornings and always has something going on. So they stayed with us all weekend.
On Saturday I took them and Belle to Build A Bear and we made my niece a bear with a hospital gown. It was really cute. We then took it to the hospital and visited for about 2 hours.
Backing up to Friday we went to my sister-in-laws house for her step sons birthday party. He made some sandwiches and my mother in law made some macaroni salad. Plus there were some other dishes but my brother in law ended up with over a 100* fever on Saturday.
And now as we speak my mother in law is at the doctors office. She was throwing up all night and morning. Great....
We all ate the foods they prepared so there is a very good chance we will all get sick. I really hope not especially since we all at some point this weekend visited my niece at the hospital. And the medicine she has to take lowers her immune system somewhat so she realllllly can't get sick.
Belle was complaining of a head ache yesterday and then again this morning so I hope that isn't anything also.
Needless to say I am really really tired.
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