Monday, January 8


I signed Belle up for her kindergarten classes this morning.

As I sit her looking back at this morning a few things surprise me about myself.

1) I nearly forgot all about it. I don't know if I was subconsciously trying to block this from my brain (and heart) or what the deal is.

2) I wasn't the least bit upset when I went. When I left. Or anytime in between. Even now I am not sad about this. And that really surprises me as I was in tears looking at all of the little heads in the school bus last fall thinking soon that would be Belle.

Now as I ponder these things and try to figure out why I can't really. The only thing I think is that it will really hit me when it is time for her to go for her assessment on February 21st or when she actually starts school. I also wonder if the fact that I had to fork over $325 this morning also put a damper on my sobs.

But she is enrolled in all day everyday kindergarten at this point. I can't believe it's true.


Diana said...

Sara heads off to kindergarten next fall, too. Wonder if I'll be misty-eyed or just fine when we go for the eval, whenever it is. For better or worse, she'll only be gone a 1/2 day (it's 4-yr-old k-garten, the 5-yr-olds are all day), so I won't be missing her all day on my days off.

Jenn said...

I thought that my wasted heart would never heal the day I had to walk Big A into school for the first time...I actually walked into a wall on my way out. She never once looked back once she stepped into the class--that said much more for me than me gasping for breath when I left the building.