Tuesday, January 23

Tired of Feeling Guilty

My girl has been sick off and on for a couple of weeks now.

At first she had a really runny nose and low grade fever.

That cleared up and then she had a sore throat for a few days.

That cleared up and now she has a really bad cough, fever, runny nose, and who knows what else. She had a fever all weekend. Her nose wouldn't stop running all day Saturday. But thankfully she has stopped going through her tissues at a rate of one per minute. I finally had enough and took her to the doctor yesterday afternoon. She goes into these coughing attacks that I fear will make her throw up sometimes. It also sounds very wheezy.

I left work early and picked her up from my SIL's house. On the way in the car I told her we were going to the doctor and she just about screamed her head off. On one hand that wouldn't have been too bad since that would have taken care of her cold but on the other hand it is a really cute head. I understand her anxiety as the last time we were there in December she received 5 shots. Not a pleasant visit at all unless you count the 5 stickers she got as a reward.

So we are at the doctors office and I reassure her that she won't have to take her clothes off this time and she won't be getting any shots. The doctor comes in and looks in her ears, mouth, and listens to her back and chest. She said her lungs sound clear and tells me a certain kind of cough medicine to get that lasts 12 hours. Then Belle coughs. The doctor says, "Ohhh. That doesn't sound like a normal cold cough." And I thank God that she heard her cough because that is why I am here. It doesn't sound good. So the doctor says she wants to listen to her breath again. She says she still sounds ok. But.....gives me a prescription for Singgulaair to help in case she has inflammation that is causing her cough to sound like that. If not better by Thursday or definitely by Friday, I am to call her and she will probably have me get her a chest x-ray to rule out pneumonia. Oh how I hope this clears up by then.

All the while in the back of my mind is the fact that I can't keep taking off of work. I will run out of time before I get out of January at this rate.

I hate taking her out in the now freezing cold weather because I want her to get better. I hate having to worry about do I stay with her, do I take her to my SIL's house, what do I do, what do I do back and forth in my head.

Oh how I wish I could be a stay at home mom. So much less stress. I am a much better person when I don't have to worry about work.

*Update: Yeah-had to call in sick to work yesterday. Belle woke up at 3am with an earache. Now she is on antibiotics as well as her other medicines. UGH!


Lauri said...

I wish you could be a stay at home too.. I know how much you want that

so sorry Belle is sick

Diana said...

It is so very stressful, isn't? Praying that if they get sick (and they will) that it happens on the weekend. When our kids are sick, we should be able to be home with them. Hope your job is understanding.

Heather said...

Oh, yeah! I'm there. My DD has been sick the past two days too and I was off work. I'm back today. Hopefully, she's OK, because she was driving me crazy with her boredom and energy yesterday. She didn't act sick at all until 9-10 PM last night. I had to coax her to take some cough medicine because it was keeping her up. Of course she couldn't wake up this morning....

Anyway, so sorry Belle is sick. Glad the doctor got to hear the cough.

Stepping Over the Junk said...

I know how that is, when the kid gets sick, how horrible for you. I also cant imagine being a working mom. I work from home and have my own business which is stressful in it's own but I can rearrange my schedule to be there when the kids need me (or want me even!). Finding balance for moms in general is VERY hard! Sometimes I do wish I had something outside of the home to do to give me some exposure to grownups!